For well over three years, I’ve been wanting to blog regularly. It makes sense because I love to share ideas, I have a passion for Language Arts, and – true to my Millenial Generation-form – my ego needs the boosting that only social media can massage. Sure, I have posted a few times here and there, but nothing consistent. So, why haven’t I been blogging “on the reg”? It’s simple: fear of failure.
Being afraid of failing at a blog makes me sound like a pansy – a very nerdy, hiding-in-a-pile-of-“Magic: The Gathering”-cards, pimple-faced pansy. But, whatever. It’s real. I haven’t blogged because I’ve found every excuse not to. What will my focus be? One can’t blog without a focus. And it has to be good. New. Noteworthy. Life-changing. What if I just plain suck? I’m an English teacher for crying out loud. I might get fired . . . Who has time to blog!? What if no one reads it? What if I don’t have time? And yet, here we are in the exchange of blogging because I’ve finally made the decision to suck it up, shut it up, and take a risk of failure
I’m actually looking forward to failing at this. Well . . . that’s a lie. I have this thing called an ego, which makes me think a student is waiting behind a corner to punch me in the crotch and yell, “Your blog SUCKS!” I’m NOT looking forward to the potential of wasted time and failure. But, it’s worth it. It is worth putting myself into new territory to learn. It’s worth engaging my brain to process ideas. It’s even worth playing around with fonts and backgrounds (have you seen what’s available!?). More than anything, it’s worth learning through this collaborative inter-human miracle called weblogging, where we pose questions, get perspective, and engage in dialogue over the things that matter.
We avoid failure by avoiding action. Instead of spending our time in reward-bearing risk, we spend our time doubting. We justify. We avoid and we deny the very things that are necessary for mental, emotional, and physical growth. And now, I refuse to let myself get sucked into the rut of habitual stagnancy. What will follow is a man on a mission to do more than just post for his own ego. I want to engage. I want to share. I want to have continual co-learning with anyone and everyone who comes this way.
And it starts with a question: Why do we fear failure? Think personally. Think culturally. Think scientifically. Don’t fail to comment (y’see what I did there!?)